frustrated

So, I met this great Christian counselor and he was amazing!  He talks about spiritual warfare and prayed with me.  I was very encouraged about my marriage from that first meeting.

But my health insurance sucks.  I seriously wonder what exactly I'm paying so much money for because with health insurance I can barely afford to go to the doctor with the deductible looming over my head!

I asked if the counselor would take less money per session and he doesn't do that.  I'm disappointed, but honestly, I totally understand!  He deserves to be paid his wage!

But now I'm feeling even more frustrated because I feel like I've been "teased" into having some hope and now that's been taken away.  Do I suck it up and pay $100 per session or look for someone else?

I feel rejected.
I don't like feeling rejected.

Then it pulls up all the feelings I have about marriage.
I do not want to be divorced but I want to be in a better relationship than I am.

I look at other people who have divorced and now have "good" second marriages and I think am I supposed to do that?  What about the idea I have that divorce is bad?  That I should work on my marriage.  OK, obviously I know I should work on my marriage and that I should avoid divorce, but at what point do I give up?

Sheesh!

CHRISTIAN counseling

So I saw a marriage therapist today.
I don't yet know how I'm going to pay for it, but I'm very encouraged.
I saw another therapist, who did in fact help me, but he didn't incorporate Christianity into his counseling and I really wanted that.

This therapist also told me where he was going and what his plans are.  He explained things instead of the frustrating path so many therapists follow where I have to find the solution myself with a slight guidance from them.  I'm intelligent enough to understand and embrace the path!

This therapist also discussed spiritual warfare and it's impact; as well as God's will and plan for my life and marriage.

And then, he prayed with me!