So, I met this great Christian counselor and he was amazing! He talks about spiritual warfare and prayed with me. I was very encouraged about my marriage from that first meeting.
But my health insurance sucks. I seriously wonder what exactly I'm paying so much money for because with health insurance I can barely afford to go to the doctor with the deductible looming over my head!
I asked if the counselor would take less money per session and he doesn't do that. I'm disappointed, but honestly, I totally understand! He deserves to be paid his wage!
But now I'm feeling even more frustrated because I feel like I've been "teased" into having some hope and now that's been taken away. Do I suck it up and pay $100 per session or look for someone else?
I feel rejected.
I don't like feeling rejected.
Then it pulls up all the feelings I have about marriage.
I do not want to be divorced but I want to be in a better relationship than I am.
I look at other people who have divorced and now have "good" second marriages and I think am I supposed to do that? What about the idea I have that divorce is bad? That I should work on my marriage. OK, obviously I know I should work on my marriage and that I should avoid divorce, but at what point do I give up?