how to clean your washing machine

So, I posted the "outraged" idea that one now has to buy a product to clean your washing machine when said machine basically is filled repeatedly with hot soapy water.  One could easily intuit that the machine by it's very job is always clean.

Apparently, I was wrong.
http://laundry.about.com/od/washermaintenancerepair/a/cleanwasher.htm

I found that site while trying to relax last night.  Listening to a teaching with my daughter and playing on Pinterest.  Click...click...click... I do need to clean my washing machine???  Wow, who knew. 

Guess what I'm doing this weekend?

now I have to clean my washing machine?

When did this become a thing?

Clicking this button will do nothing because I am not linking to something I deem as unnecessary.
Wait, when I think about that, I may not be entirely honest there.
Still, no link.

Now, on top of having to clean my clothes in the washing machine I also have to actually clean my washing machine?

Did I miss something?
Don't I put soap and alternate hot water and even bleach into this machine which churns and activates said soap/water/bleach?!?

Now I have to clean that too?

Hmmm, considering there are dishes in my sink from 3 days ago, I'll add this to the bottom of the list.

living together before marriage?

Why is it wrong to live together before marriage?
A friend of mind is dealing with this dilemma.  We aren't even talking about having sex before marriage, but about living together without the sex (trying to be good and all).

So my initial response is to not do it. 
That's my gut feeling.
So I thought about it.
Why is it wrong?
Appearance of evil is one reason.
Creating an atmosphere of temptation is another.

http://www.businessinsider.com/why-living-together-before-marriage-is-a-bad-idea-infographic-2012-7

I have this strong feeling that it's wrong and damaging to a relationship.  It sets up expectations that may not be fulfilled.

More on this as I process.

frustrated

So, I met this great Christian counselor and he was amazing!  He talks about spiritual warfare and prayed with me.  I was very encouraged about my marriage from that first meeting.

But my health insurance sucks.  I seriously wonder what exactly I'm paying so much money for because with health insurance I can barely afford to go to the doctor with the deductible looming over my head!

I asked if the counselor would take less money per session and he doesn't do that.  I'm disappointed, but honestly, I totally understand!  He deserves to be paid his wage!

But now I'm feeling even more frustrated because I feel like I've been "teased" into having some hope and now that's been taken away.  Do I suck it up and pay $100 per session or look for someone else?

I feel rejected.
I don't like feeling rejected.

Then it pulls up all the feelings I have about marriage.
I do not want to be divorced but I want to be in a better relationship than I am.

I look at other people who have divorced and now have "good" second marriages and I think am I supposed to do that?  What about the idea I have that divorce is bad?  That I should work on my marriage.  OK, obviously I know I should work on my marriage and that I should avoid divorce, but at what point do I give up?

Sheesh!

mac?

I am a firm Windows supporter and have remained fairly steadfast in my anti-Mac feelings.

I have to say, I am reconsidering after spending more than 6 months with a broken computer due to viruses and even today having issues where my computer won't load things properly.

I'm just tired of fighting it.

So, I will admit, I've taken A step... I looked to see what they cost.

This is not going to happen anytime soon.  They sure want a lot for those non-virus getting machine.

CHRISTIAN counseling

So I saw a marriage therapist today.
I don't yet know how I'm going to pay for it, but I'm very encouraged.
I saw another therapist, who did in fact help me, but he didn't incorporate Christianity into his counseling and I really wanted that.

This therapist also told me where he was going and what his plans are.  He explained things instead of the frustrating path so many therapists follow where I have to find the solution myself with a slight guidance from them.  I'm intelligent enough to understand and embrace the path!

This therapist also discussed spiritual warfare and it's impact; as well as God's will and plan for my life and marriage.

And then, he prayed with me!

writers block

Why is it when I've driving or doing anything other than being near a computer where I can write I have all sorts of good ideas for a blog post...

and when I sit in front of the computer...

nothing.

#frustrated.